Happy Birthday to me

25th of October. As a friend of mine, You'll realize its my birthday.

Its my pleasure that my close buddies throw a celebration for me in Bangsar Shopping Complex. But on the way there, I notice several stuff.

This is me, and I'm observent. Very. For each shopping mall I visited, I will peep around to make sure which angle have installed CCTV. If they do installed, how many. And I'm a very careful person as well. Maybe I'm inspired by some spy action movie. I usually arrive at one floor above where I live or 1 floor below. Therefore, No one could trace my living place. Something like that.

So among close buddies, I dont know what to say anymore rather than disappointment. Its never about the party. Its never about the gift. But its about the quality moment. This is the weakness of us human. We take things for granted. And we only start appreciates when its gone. I think mostly for now, our hang out session are basically bored. Perhaps this 'stage' is normal?

Or maybe friends are like our 'product' ? Like one of the lesson we learned in marketing about the 'product life cycle' could be apply to our friends? The cycle stage are followed by introduction, growth, maturity and declining. Then the cycle will probably repeat itself. I believe someone must take the effort.

So, my friends picked me up from my place. And trust me, We spoke quite less inside the car. Its not healthy compare to those days we could talk about anything with anyone. But right now, Even there are three person within a vehicle, a person will still left out. I mean two person can carry on a conversation while abandoning the other. This is terrible.

Am I sensitive? Or my friends has changed without even they realising it? I cant remember much of the conversation I had during my birthday dinner. I remember i mentioned about the silly video clip, and they talked about the unfortunate guy, Marco Simoncelli that crashed his bike in MotoGP, and what else? I cant remember. Sorry.

As I mentioned earlier on, its never about the gift, about the food, about the place or anything. I dont ask for anything, but all I want is just a quality time together where everyone get to talk, share their stories, and everybody listening to it and giving feedbacks. I prefer respond from the rest and I prefer them to participate.

I would rather organize a birthday event rather than being the birthday boy. I give out my best in seeking quality moments for my friends, I give them something special, I use my brain and think what they would like. This is what I call caring. I dont mind giving rather than receiving with a sorrow heart. The art of giving is so beautiful. Its never enough. There are so many needy person in this world. Just when you thought u helped someone, theres another person crying out for help in another corner. That is why, I love to bless others. Sigh.

I'm not ungrateful for the effort they poured in oganizing it. I'm thankful for their willingness to throw such an awesome dinner but I believe it could have be better if everyone just talk to everyone. Literally!

I'm 22 yeras old this year. And the age number of 22 will never change no matter how you relocate it. My birthday wishes are simple for this year.

• I wish my family will prosper and our bond will strengthens in years to come.
• I wish my close friends will remain as close friends in the future.
• I wish all of my friends are able to find the right soulmate in time to come.
  

Specially thanks to Andy, Jimmy, Danial, Seh Ming and Joy for coming for my birthday dinner.