I think I have a problem. The problem is, I cant sleep the way I sleep in the past. I just dont feel that my mind is fully shut down. It feels like my eyes are closed but my inner self are awake. maybe that's the reason I got attacked by LOTS of dreams lately. Almost every night, I dream. The dream was so real until I'm still tired after slept for 10 hours. The fact maybe i will disturb by my dreams and wake up during the 10 hours sleeps is as many as 7 tims! dam!
Perhaps, I think too much. Is there a decease for a person that think too much? screw it la. Exam is coming up next!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Monday, November 09, 2009
The happy payout
What are the possible causes would make someone happy for paying out their money? Not everyone love watching their cash flowing from their wallet. Some CEO of a company might be smiling while donating a cheque of RM1 million to charity, but if there's no such thing as CSR, they would rather save and invest in other stuff.
But I'm love giving out money. Dont get excited my beloved readers. Cause it applies to my family members only. I give them happily.
Last year my younger brother, Andy told me that he dislike studies. He complain to me how much he hates books and stuff that relates to education. But deep inside I knew he's smart. He ignore me and told me that he wanted to choose not to study. I did argued with him. asking him what's the point of you not studying when you can do it? He answered me: I'm lazy.
This year, I encourage him to study. I offered him a deal during his mid-term exam. I told him, for each "A" he gets, I will reward him RM20. But for each "C" he gets, I will deduct RM20. And for "D", A deduction of RM30 will be made. Simple as that. He jumped happily and accept my deal.
Results is out. He stood in front of me and ask me whether I have already ready the money because he got 8 A's but, he got 2 C's. The rest is all "B". He told me the subject he gotten for "C" is unimportant. But deal is deal. I told him before that I dont want to see any "C". Just "B" and "A". And finally I gave him RM120 after the deduction was made. He told me how he scored poorly in last year mid-term exam and how happy he was now with the money and the results.
Few months later, Final exam is approaching for him. This time he confront me and ask me what's the deal. He demanded for more money in the deal or else he would not study. I told him the rules is simple. Obey or lose it. But noticing final exam is tougher than mid-term exam, I will increase the pay rate from RM20 to RM25. So each A he obtain, RM25 will be rewarded and deduction will be charge as usual.
And yesterday, He stood in front of me again telling me if scored 7 A's!! but this time no "C". I told him well done. I will reward him RM175 this time for his effort and results. He's really happy and so do I.
I'm not trying to make my brother study for money that kinda thing. I just trying to motivate him. I ask him before what he want and I'll get for him if he gets a good results. But he told me he needs money. You know kids, tons of activities ahead. Go outing la, karaoke la.. I love their spirit! They just cant stop moving. :)
Well, hope he will get a better results next year. That's all I hope for and I also hope a great set of friends will surround him. :)
But I'm love giving out money. Dont get excited my beloved readers. Cause it applies to my family members only. I give them happily.
Last year my younger brother, Andy told me that he dislike studies. He complain to me how much he hates books and stuff that relates to education. But deep inside I knew he's smart. He ignore me and told me that he wanted to choose not to study. I did argued with him. asking him what's the point of you not studying when you can do it? He answered me: I'm lazy.
This year, I encourage him to study. I offered him a deal during his mid-term exam. I told him, for each "A" he gets, I will reward him RM20. But for each "C" he gets, I will deduct RM20. And for "D", A deduction of RM30 will be made. Simple as that. He jumped happily and accept my deal.
Results is out. He stood in front of me and ask me whether I have already ready the money because he got 8 A's but, he got 2 C's. The rest is all "B". He told me the subject he gotten for "C" is unimportant. But deal is deal. I told him before that I dont want to see any "C". Just "B" and "A". And finally I gave him RM120 after the deduction was made. He told me how he scored poorly in last year mid-term exam and how happy he was now with the money and the results.
Few months later, Final exam is approaching for him. This time he confront me and ask me what's the deal. He demanded for more money in the deal or else he would not study. I told him the rules is simple. Obey or lose it. But noticing final exam is tougher than mid-term exam, I will increase the pay rate from RM20 to RM25. So each A he obtain, RM25 will be rewarded and deduction will be charge as usual.
And yesterday, He stood in front of me again telling me if scored 7 A's!! but this time no "C". I told him well done. I will reward him RM175 this time for his effort and results. He's really happy and so do I.
I'm not trying to make my brother study for money that kinda thing. I just trying to motivate him. I ask him before what he want and I'll get for him if he gets a good results. But he told me he needs money. You know kids, tons of activities ahead. Go outing la, karaoke la.. I love their spirit! They just cant stop moving. :)
Well, hope he will get a better results next year. That's all I hope for and I also hope a great set of friends will surround him. :)
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Unbelievable
Wife: Hey hubby, I think I dont want you anymore
Husband: Why? what's wrong honey? tell me and I'll fix it. Please dont leave me.
Wife: You break every promises that you've made. You promise me that we gonna go Italy on our first honeymoon. In the end, we spend our first honeymoon in Berkeley which is at Klang.
Husband: I'm sorry dear. I got no money at that time. well, but at least I brought you to somewhere right?
Wife: ...., (thinking of ways to divorce with her husband) how about this? I wouldnt leave you if you bring me to Italy for our second honeymoon? Then I might consider about leaving you.
Husband: Of course I will.
Wife: I thought you said you got no money?
Husband: Since when I'm paying for our honeymoon?
Wife: Then?
Husband: The government of our country will pay for it ma..
Wife: ....
P/s: Today's paper reveal any couple in Terengganu that go for a second honeymoon will at state's expense. Can you believe this?
Husband: Why? what's wrong honey? tell me and I'll fix it. Please dont leave me.
Wife: You break every promises that you've made. You promise me that we gonna go Italy on our first honeymoon. In the end, we spend our first honeymoon in Berkeley which is at Klang.
Husband: I'm sorry dear. I got no money at that time. well, but at least I brought you to somewhere right?
Wife: ...., (thinking of ways to divorce with her husband) how about this? I wouldnt leave you if you bring me to Italy for our second honeymoon? Then I might consider about leaving you.
Husband: Of course I will.
Wife: I thought you said you got no money?
Husband: Since when I'm paying for our honeymoon?
Wife: Then?
Husband: The government of our country will pay for it ma..
Wife: ....
P/s: Today's paper reveal any couple in Terengganu that go for a second honeymoon will at state's expense. Can you believe this?
Monday, September 28, 2009
For you my friend
Dear Joshua Anthony Hajok,
This post is truly dedicated to you. To be honest, I would never imagine something like this will occur. I'm so sorry to hear your dad is gone. My deepest condolences to you and your family. It's hard to discover that the head of the family is gone. And now, there's more weight of responsibility on your shoulder. Help your family, especially your mom. It's gonna be hard for her to take it. Take care of your family members and yourself too. Trust me, I know how it feels. Things will never gonna be the same anymore without your dad's presence. Just stay strong Hajok. I as your friend will always stand by you and help you in times of trouble. I pray that your dad's soul will rest in peace and enjoy in the Lord's house. Take care Hajok.
Your sincerely,
Adrian
P/s: this post reminds me of my previous post. Suddenly I can feel the surge of sadness within myself.....
This post is truly dedicated to you. To be honest, I would never imagine something like this will occur. I'm so sorry to hear your dad is gone. My deepest condolences to you and your family. It's hard to discover that the head of the family is gone. And now, there's more weight of responsibility on your shoulder. Help your family, especially your mom. It's gonna be hard for her to take it. Take care of your family members and yourself too. Trust me, I know how it feels. Things will never gonna be the same anymore without your dad's presence. Just stay strong Hajok. I as your friend will always stand by you and help you in times of trouble. I pray that your dad's soul will rest in peace and enjoy in the Lord's house. Take care Hajok.
Your sincerely,
Adrian
P/s: this post reminds me of my previous post. Suddenly I can feel the surge of sadness within myself.....
Friday, September 25, 2009
Time to move on
Actually, it took me a while for me to move up. I'm spiritually break down. My emotion are all mess up during this duration. It all happen when I was told by my agent that he receive complain from my working place. Ever since then, I was given a break. Honestly, I was naive and believe it would be a break because he said so.
I raise that matter to few people, people who are involve in the working force. They told me that break could be 2 meaning. Either is temporary break or permanently break. I was upset. I made a mistake during working. I shouldnt do my assignment and working at the same time.
This incident took place beginning of this month. It was pain in the ass. Although I have plan B for my working career. Which means I will still have a job. But, mistake are mistake. How I wish I could turn back things. I have sleepless night thinking of it. I started to feel the pain of those working adults who got retrench from their company. I do not sympathy them. I empathy them.
I play 24/7. Every single minute that I have. I start to give up to work and just play. Eat, sleep play. My life is totally ruin. I reach a stage where I couldnt sleep because of all these worries. The least I can do is to keep playing or reading news until I slept in front of my pc. I couldnt find another to sleep. It drives me crazy when all the worries hits me when I close my eyes.
There are so many arguements, worries, trouble, stress, to handle. I started to blame why I dont have daddy. Why I have to face all these problem when I'm the second one in the family? Why me? If anyone of you accident, you'll call your daddy or mom. But I cant. I dont have one daddy and my mom wont like it. She will only turn situation worse. I cant blame her cause she's a single mother. Although I told people to be strong sometimes, but i bruise easily. A sight of a dad hugging their son will keep my tears flowing. Imediately my mind will have a flashback on my dad's voice and his presence.
I have few wish in my life. But I think I will never achieve it anymore. I always thought I can fetch my dad once I got my lisence. I always want to drive him around. I always want to. I also want him to see I'm graduate. I want him to know that his son from a troublemaker can prove himself all the way up to earn a degree. But he passed away right before the moment I enroll in college. And worst, even before I obtain my driving license.
While last week I was sending off John in airport, I cant really hold my tears back when his dad hugging John. I couldnt use any word to describe how I felt at that moment. No matter how advance is our technology, it will never revive a death person. No matter how many route the aeroplane travel, it will never reach to my dad. No matter what..my dad is gone.
As I took a deep breath in the balcony just now, I realize there are so many things left undone. I start hold back my tears and tell myself that I need streangth to carry on. I really need God in my life. I need His strength. It's time for me to move on. There are still many pending task ahead of me. Back to work !
I raise that matter to few people, people who are involve in the working force. They told me that break could be 2 meaning. Either is temporary break or permanently break. I was upset. I made a mistake during working. I shouldnt do my assignment and working at the same time.
This incident took place beginning of this month. It was pain in the ass. Although I have plan B for my working career. Which means I will still have a job. But, mistake are mistake. How I wish I could turn back things. I have sleepless night thinking of it. I started to feel the pain of those working adults who got retrench from their company. I do not sympathy them. I empathy them.
I play 24/7. Every single minute that I have. I start to give up to work and just play. Eat, sleep play. My life is totally ruin. I reach a stage where I couldnt sleep because of all these worries. The least I can do is to keep playing or reading news until I slept in front of my pc. I couldnt find another to sleep. It drives me crazy when all the worries hits me when I close my eyes.
There are so many arguements, worries, trouble, stress, to handle. I started to blame why I dont have daddy. Why I have to face all these problem when I'm the second one in the family? Why me? If anyone of you accident, you'll call your daddy or mom. But I cant. I dont have one daddy and my mom wont like it. She will only turn situation worse. I cant blame her cause she's a single mother. Although I told people to be strong sometimes, but i bruise easily. A sight of a dad hugging their son will keep my tears flowing. Imediately my mind will have a flashback on my dad's voice and his presence.
I have few wish in my life. But I think I will never achieve it anymore. I always thought I can fetch my dad once I got my lisence. I always want to drive him around. I always want to. I also want him to see I'm graduate. I want him to know that his son from a troublemaker can prove himself all the way up to earn a degree. But he passed away right before the moment I enroll in college. And worst, even before I obtain my driving license.
While last week I was sending off John in airport, I cant really hold my tears back when his dad hugging John. I couldnt use any word to describe how I felt at that moment. No matter how advance is our technology, it will never revive a death person. No matter how many route the aeroplane travel, it will never reach to my dad. No matter what..my dad is gone.
As I took a deep breath in the balcony just now, I realize there are so many things left undone. I start hold back my tears and tell myself that I need streangth to carry on. I really need God in my life. I need His strength. It's time for me to move on. There are still many pending task ahead of me. Back to work !
Monday, September 21, 2009
Nostalgic feeling
One of my friend, John Jerald has left our country tonight for further studies at Teesside. Words cant explain or measure how much fun we have experience together. We have many things in common although we are born as different race. John indeed is a good buddy that anyone can cling along at the first sight. If you meet him for the first time, you should probably thinking when is the next time you will see him again. His speaking ability makes you feel confort, his smile makes you feel happy and most importantly his presense is able to creates joy within a person.
I mean, I never fail to smile once I saw him. In another way, he never fails to greet without a sweet smile on his face. I have personnally know him for almost 4 years. We have been through so many things together through mission trip, outing, futsal and others. He is the best indian that I meet in my life.
Again, nothing more can stop the time from ticking. Every second is passing and everyone have to grow up and start pursuing their dreams. It is his call to study at overseas for a better future.
I pray God will keep you safe and bless you in His way. Do take care of yourself when you're there. A person like you will easily attract any friends. But I hope you will always remember all the friends you have in Malaysia. Take care John Jerald. God bless. :)
I mean, I never fail to smile once I saw him. In another way, he never fails to greet without a sweet smile on his face. I have personnally know him for almost 4 years. We have been through so many things together through mission trip, outing, futsal and others. He is the best indian that I meet in my life.
Again, nothing more can stop the time from ticking. Every second is passing and everyone have to grow up and start pursuing their dreams. It is his call to study at overseas for a better future.
I pray God will keep you safe and bless you in His way. Do take care of yourself when you're there. A person like you will easily attract any friends. But I hope you will always remember all the friends you have in Malaysia. Take care John Jerald. God bless. :)
Monday, August 31, 2009
1 thing that I 'pantang'
When it comes to work, i dont throw in my emotion. I mean if I'm angry, sad, happy or whatever shit. I'll still be me. Mood wont really affect me. Because you dont wanna add on another regret of not performing your job well. And then you'll become sad again. I understand we are humans. We have feelings. It's ok if you got carried away by your work for once. But not more than that please. If you're sad, then take a leave and off you go to somewhere you can find happiness. If you're angry, please dont spread the anger by speaking rudely among the staff. And if you're PUASA, please and please, dont make it as an excuse saying that you got to go buka puasa. do you think christians dont fast? I have never and ever use that excuse in my life before. NEVER. And now Malaysia is treating me like this. What the cock?
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